Swinger Jealousy?

We're going to another party this weekend, it's being held by one of our swinging friends. But, as usual, it's not as straight forward as it should be for me. Claire will be there. I was well aware of this when I decided we'd go, in fact I was feeling eager to see her and Mr S. together again.

But as the time draws near, I can feel the panic rising within me. I don't blame Claire for what happened, well, no more than 50% anyway. But I'm apprehensive about seeing her again. I feel no pain about the incident anymore, but I do tut and shake my head disapprovingly when it comes up in conversation with Mr S. He is, as always, very clued up on my feelings and is well aware that he needs to tread carefully on this one. So far he's given me lots of reassurance and has vowed to stay well clear until I'm happy with the situation.

"After all," he says "this is about us, you and me. You're the one I love, the only one who turns me on completely. Nothing compares to what we've got together, it could never be this good with anyone else."

I couldn't ask for more, it's all up to me and for that I'm really grateful.

But I know Mr S. is delighted at the prospect of fucking Claire again and who could blame him? She is gorgeous, beautifully slim, with the largest, fullest natural breasts I've ever seen. Plus she's friendly, fun and knows how to fuck! Wow, he's in for a treat for sure. And I must admit to feeling extremely turned on when I think of them together. Such a shame she's straight!

Sooooo, how will I react when I see her again and then, if/when I see them 'together? I definitely don't want to cause a scene and hope that I'll be able to suppress any negative emotions, as and when, they raise their ugly heads? However, as you can probably tell from my posts and comments, I don't usually shy away from speaking my mind and detest unfinished business. This time though, should I leave everything unsaid, or is it best to take her to one side and have a little 'chat'? But there's a time and place for everything and this might not be it..............

But to be fair to Claire, she did nothing to me. She didn't betray me, hurt me, or break any promises and she wasn't aware that what they were doing together was forbidden, but Mr S. did. So, she really has nothing to answer for, she owes me no explanation, no apology. Nothing.

Aha! Writing this post has allowed me to work through my tangled mass of emotions and helped me realise, that what I'm really afraid of, is digging up all those ill feelings I had towards Mr S. Now that I can deal with!

That's sorted then, settled in my head. I can now look forward to a fun packed evening full of lust, desire and hot sex! Oh and I forgot to mention earlier, if things do get a little heavy, I have a few distractions to keep me preoccupied, in the form of three hot ladies who I've previously had the luxurious pleasure of .......

Wish me luck!