New horizons

There has been a new development in the Spanknsparkle household. Mr S has granted me a Golden Ticket, valid for one night only (Terms & Conditions apply, please see reverse for details). To clarify, he wants to try a Full Swap. Wow, now that really is a BIG development. You've heard me in the past umming and erring about doing a Soft Swap, never mind a full one!

Anyway, he wants to visit a club again this weekend. I'm not too bothered about going so soon after last time, but this is one of those rare occasions where he's expressed a desire to go. Usually it's me who calls the shots and makes the plans, so I really want to encourage this new behaviour.

Now, how do I feel about this proposal? I have a few fears. I am very hung up on size (sorry guys but I'm trying to be honest). I think it's because, as previously discussed, Mr S owns the only cock that has managed to satisfy me. I think his success is due to a combination of size, shape and technique, plus the fact that I feel emotionally secure and safe with him.

The size thing also has a little to do with myself. Compared to other women, how can I put this, I'm, errrrrmmm, I'm not so tight! Some girls I struggle to insert two fingers into, whereas I'm a full fist sorta gal! This suits Mr S and I perfectly, we fit together very nicely and neither of us has any complaints. But what if I end up with some guy who has a really skinny cock and feels like he's throwing a sausage up an alley? With me uttering the dreaded words "Is it in yet?" Yikes! I cringe at the thought!

Big cock or little willy, the idea that it might actually happen tomorrow scares the living daylights out of me. However, there is a part of me which is completely fascinated with the concept of taking another man. Using him for my satisfaction, giving him a little taster of me, then casting him aside. All done very courteously of course!

If the world were full of swinging unicorns, I wouldn't even contemplate this route. This really is like walking on ice, playing with fire and any other old cliché you'd like to throw at it. As a safety valve I've agreed to do it only if Mr S chooses him/the couple. I am very aware of how fragile his emotional veneer is and how incredibly sensitive and somewhat insecure he is. So, if he chooses, in theory, he shouldn't feel as threatened as if I chose him/them?

So, wish me luck and I'll let you know how/if it went in my next entry xx